i'm an emotional roller coaster today...actually, it started last night.

chieu was out with friends all day yesterday and i tried my best not to get mad/sad about that, but in the end, my emotions won out.

i try not to resent him because I CHOSE to move down here to be closer to him, but its so lonely and he doesn't seem to understand it at all. i tell him and he goes, well, do something. even if i do something, i'm still BY MYSELF. a year of suppression and now i just don't know how to handle it.

i'm not mad at him, but i don't want to talk to him either. :: sigh :: i dunno what i want.