i binged on everything i could get my hands on for 2 days...gained 4 lbs. then ran 10+ mi this morning to make up for it. i <3 the taste of food, i hate what it does to my body. blah. need to get outta this mindset. i've been so obsessed with dieting/working out/counting calories.

i wish i could go back to the old me...3 square meals a day, not afraid of snacks.

will it ever happen?

chieu was just here =)

friday - i made tilapia fajitas...yum yum and we had cherry cheesecake and went to bed early cuz we had to get up early on sat...

sat - went hiking (mcafee's knob), it was soo nice, but soo windy! then went to the corn maize at layman farms (it was free thanks to lewis gale). i got to shoot a pumpkin out of a cannon! then went to smokey bones for dinner and called it a day.

sun - total bums all day. dennys for breakfast, watched a few episodes of man v. food, lunch at ragazzis, continued to watch man v food. left overs for dinner (smokey bones and ragazzis).
it was nice just to bum it.

now its monday, back to routine. gained 5lbs over the weekend. most of it it water weight. just gotta lose that and get back to normal. =)

97.4! =)

chieu's coming today. yay!

too bad when he comes, we eat. so the weight won't stay that way. but that's ok. i'm slowly getting there.

98.6 today. new low! wheeeeeee. then ate like a horse at lunch. such a good choc turtle cake =) (thank you pfizer)

its ~730pm and i'm sitting here missing chieu. i'll c him in 2 days. i've been doing alot of reminiscing lately about us...not sure why. i remember...

- our first hug (after he surprised me at nga's house)
- the first time we kissed (in my old blue camry, although he swears he kissed me the first time we hugged)
- the first time i went to grab his hand <3 (at the top foods parking lot)
- the first night he spent at my house, just hanging out and talking. he was sitting at my computer desk and i was sitting on my bed
- the times we'd cuddle while watching movies our first xmas (break) together.

i can't believe its been 5 years. so crazy thinking about it. i appreciate all the things he does for me (although i'm not very good at letting him know that, i'm better at picking fights).

i don't know what i'd do if he weren't in my life.

<3

i have a love-hate relationship with food.

=(

i've hovering around 100....guess i'll b ok with that. i would love to lose another 5 lbs, but

1. no motivation anymore
2. i'm afraid none of my clothes will fit (since they're already a bit big) and i don't have money to buy new ones.

100 is good. its my ibw. now to work on abs and stuff.

i ate bulgolgi today with pickled cucumbers. yumness. i made it too!

chieu was just here last weekend, so of course i gained a couple of lbs water wt....fun always losing that.

started my psych rotation. i don't think its as bad as i expected, which is good. free breakfast and lunch too. bad for the waist, great for the checkbook. hahaha.

oct 17th - corn maze. free admission, thanks to lewis gale. yay. save 20 bux and get a free pumpkin or 2 since chieu's coming.

halloween - going to winnie.

nov 6-8 - DC and baltimore, another mini vaca. i <3 chieu. he makes it all possible.

our hiking trip to dragon's tooth:

this week was so difficult.

no motivation to work out.

back up to 100 lbs. i shouldn't complain. my low/high point was 118. i'm doing good on that aspect. i just need to maintain it now.

5 weeks ago, i was 100.8. so in 5 weeks, i've lost 0.8 lbs. sad.

at least chieu's coming. somethign to look forward to. =D