This semester has been quite a toughie. I've learned a lot and grown stronger, but I can't get over some of the disappointments.
1. Friends aren't always what they seem.
2. Sometimes no matter how hard I try, I can't seem to get there...I always fall short.
3. I need to stop being competitive and comparing myself to others.
4. There's life outside of school. Although I'm still having a tough time getting my brain to understand that sometimes.
I have such high standards for myself, and I can't always meet them, no matter how hard I try, then I become really unmotivated because I can't get there, it seems like I'll never get there. I feel inadequate, like I'm not good enough for anything. I'm ready to get over this time of my life (going to school) and start the "real world." Whatever that means.
On a lighter note, I got engaged this semester and had a wonderful spring break with my fiance in Florida (where we got engaged at Disneyworld =D) It was perfect and a wonderful surprise! I want to go tell the world, but our parents don't know yet and since they're so traditional, they won't know until I graduate school in another year. So long to hide things, but I've been doing that since I became a teenager so it's nothing new. Look at my ring, it's so pretty and he picked it out himself!
The time of my life here in Winchester is almost over. I have 2 more finals and then a mission trip to Nicaragua left. My rotations are in another area until March and then it's time for me to go back to the rainy Northwest. As much as I hate it sometimes, it will always be home.
I have more to say, but I must study now.
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